Thursday, August 29, 2013

My Motorcycle


Proverbs 14:29
      It can be difficult to be patient. I know, I drive to work on a highway populated with twenty-somethings who have a death wish! They weave in and out of the three lanes of traffic like they are trying to weave a tapestry with their movements. But, I have to admit, it only takes one person on the on-ramp talking on the cell phone and not paying any attention to the fact that the traffic is going 70 and they are going 45, to get me weaving and passing. Yikes!
      Maybe traffic doesn’t get you going, but I can bet there is something in life that pushes your quick-tempered button. I wish I only had one button. How about you?
      Sometimes the reactions seem to come from nowhere. The look on someone’s face, a loud bang, a sudden movement and it seems as though a point in the past is pulled into the present and takes over. We all have these types of reactions to one degree or another.
      As I sat here writing these words I was reminded of a moment in traffic in San Antonio, TX. I was riding my motorcycle and someone crossed two lanes of traffic and got right in my lane, right next to me, six inches from my handle bars. There was nothing I could do. I was on a curve and I didn’t have the ability to do anything. I was afraid if I made any change, I would get sucked under his car and killed. As I sat here, the memory of that moment triggered the same tightness in my body and feelings of “I’m going to die.”
      Our proverb today contrasts patience with a quick-temper and understanding with folly. When we are patient we demonstrate a degree of understanding. As I think about that other driver, talking to his friends, unaware of my presence right next to his head, I would like to politely knock on his window and ask him to kindly move out of my lane. Is that really what I want? You are right! I want to smash his window and scream that he is trying to kill me!
      One part of me understands he was not trying to kill me. He didn’t even know I was there. The other part wants him to understand the terror he caused deep within me. Patience can grow out of this understanding. But if I let my perception of that moment rule my understanding of the event, impatience results. When I feel like someone is cutting it too closely, in that moment my body reminds me of the motorcycle over twenty five years ago.
      For me, patience has so much to do with not taking things that other people do personally. They are not trying to “get” me. They probably have no idea what their actions did inside of me. When I understand that, and own it, I can then choose in that moment to realize they are not trying to kill me, and I can relax.
      Patient responses have positive long-term consequences. Quick-tempered ones are almost always train wrecks beginning to happen.
      What pushes your buttons toward impatience?